Cogito Ergo Doleo

-> I can sit at this table and ponder the happenings

and all the crap that found its way back to me

-> Although the concept may be old still

as of now I beseech forgiveness, even if it be my last will

-> Indeed the words "I'm sorry" cannot even begin to explain

or any brilliant intricate phrase which will still fail to attain

-> the stain which has been poured, no, not dripped

into our lives in one quick trip

-> It pissed me off, I'm upset, frustrated

putting it in other terms: I'm the exact opposite of elated

-> you told me earlier what's done is done and I can't take anything back

but that doesn't mean I can't make my attempts to get everything back on track

-> I'm gonna try, but of course only time will tell

Gonna try and make it work, even if it IS to no avail

-> please, really do try to see the good in me here, that is all I want

I mean nothing wrong, I have good morals, if I may borrow that idea from Kant

-> this home in which i write is warm and comfortable all the while

but from you now i feel no warmth, I'm on an atrocious exile

-> I wish it weren't that way, I really do

but, yea, when the time was right, i didn't come through

-> I'm not trying to defer the blame away from me, I wouldn't

I'm just confessing I did something I shouldn't

-> everything is my fault, yea i get it

it's formed a blanket on me and i'm gonna work to shed it

-> I utmost desire that my words find your eyes

and even if they don't this was worth the try

-> or even better that they find a way to your heart

because I know if i'm gonna do this right, that'd be the place to start

-> look, we're friends I'm not making a proposition that we go past that

I just want us to be the friends that we were before, asap, stat

-> just know this is my cry for help, i want this to fix

this isn't a game, and i sure as hell am not doing this just for kicks

-> let me know if you read this, please, just for some closure

because I really just want you to read this - it's not about the pure exposure

-> I know others are gonna read this and ask

but don't worry you're good, this is my task

-> you're awesome and i'm sure I've told you a thousand times, probably

just make this consideration for me, I'm sorry.